:: hello STRANGER ::

Don't talk to strangers!

macam mak2 kte pesan...

tp aku PERLU. bukan aku xde kwn, bukan aku xde rakan. tp dlm keadaan skrg ni, rase mcm tanak kacau org yg sedang sibuk2 itu. aku pon sibuk. aku tau ap perasaan kalau ad org kacau. hati rasa mau cerita. tp xtau kat sape. so i prefer stranger. maybe die tak kan jugde aku sbb die xtau aku jahat ke baik. maybe he can genuinely tell  ape aku buat ni btol atau salah. itu yg aku nak. kalau kwn, mesti die back up kte. kalau rakan, sumhow, die akn buat kte rase xbsalah. kn? that is what freinds are for.untuk puji, untuk pujuk. 

dear stranger, pls help me.lend me ur ears. 

It's great when strangers become friends

But it became sadder when those friends become strangers

WILL YOU BE MY STRANGER? 

p/s : masih ad yg suruh aku senyum, dia mcm tau aku dalam keadaan hati  gundah kalut serabut. for that, thank you U.. 

:: laki juga nervous jumpa dr handsome ::

lokasi : poly B
supervisor : dr handsome.

dr : wat bur are u going to use for caries removal??
afak (bukan name sebenar) :slow speed small round diamond bur
dr : SLOW SPEED? ahaha. may i know why?
afak (bukan nama sebenar) : to avoid cutting the sound tooth structure.
dr : ok. :)

afak dgn bangga nye gune high speed. hipokrit punya budak,.

(5 minit kemudian..)

didie : dr, my partner want to show caries free.
dr : haf u remove ur caries with slow speed bur? (haha, baik punya perli dr)


lg satu scene

dr : what bur do u use for polishing composite?
(dekat high speed hendpiece: terpacak WHITE stone bur.)
dr : wat??
afak (bukan name sebenar) : GREEN stone bur.
(kene gelak ngn aku ng dr. hahaha)
soalan simple pon nak nervous fak..


lg satu.

afak (bukan name sebenar) : dr, i want to do extraction for 15 root stump
(after amek PA, agak senang nak cabut sebab root pendek je)
afak (bukan name sebenar) : Dr, may i proceed?
dr : are you ready to do the exo?
afak : YES.OF COURSE. !

yg ni aku xtau mane hilang malu die. hehe. :P



hahahahahaha. afak nervous kowt. asyik duk salah dan nak tunjuk baik. haha.

:: will it be just fine...? ::

i keep on blaming myself for the desicion that i've made.
and it was So bad it hurts inside




u have  strong reason refusing my phone calls,
as u may be the one that hurt most at all cost.




i want u to know that it wasnt easy for me either,
of what we've been through, i still remember ,




When we were still together,
I truly loved you,
but what’s happening right now,
I guess we are through,
it’s really hard for me,
to get off with you.
but I know this might be good
for both me and you.




I have my reasons why I wanted it out,
I have my reasons why I choose to let you go
I have my reasons but I am not able to explain anymore

p/s : there are 4 things you cannot recover in life: the stone after its thrown. 

the word after its said. 

the occasion after its missed. the time after its gone.

maybe, ini langkah yang harus aku jejak,

mungkin, ini jalan yang harus aku pilih,

:: it is harder when u r alone ::

I'm at the point in my life where things are neither good or bad. They could be better, but they could be worse and I can't look at anything with a purely optimistic point of view. It's that point in life where you just have to forge forward and hope for the best. You keep your fingers crossed in hopes that someday catching that happiness you tried so hard to hold in your grasp. That's the thing about happiness, it is fleeting. Like that firefly you try to capture and no matter how many times you waver, try to clasp it in your hands, but it never wants to be kept. Keep one foot in front of the other and move along, because someday that firefly will find it's way back to you.

p/s : ...............................

:: if i were yOu ::

"bite your lips, or keep your mouth shut ...Keep your mouth shut, keep your mouth shut ...Keep your mouth shut." you hear me?? SHUT!




p/s :The difference between stupidity and genius is that genius has its limits.

jariku buruk lagi..

my most precious SCUD akan bertanding mlm ni. and im, sitting on my chair, buat wire bending. wawawa
bukan nak study! tp wire bending lg best dr study loni. stendert pemalas. walau xberape terror bab2 bend wire ni, tetibe ad simpan ati dan perasaan nak jd orthodontist. xpe, maybe aku bley hire mane2 technition yg terror lagi handsome ntuk bantu aku. 


see! jari yg nak pulih dr bend wayar sebelum ni, bakal jd buruk lagi.

p/s : mungkin aku stay jd tidodontis? 

L...for LOSER

L would have been great. LOVE. LOVELY. LOTSOFMONEY.

tp nape ni yg aku rase. 

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! = = "

hari ni saje dh byk kali aku rase nak bunuh org. sbb kebongokan aku makin terserlah.

mlm td lg, aku dh iron baju, takut pg bgun lambat. 

gOOd. aku bjaye bgun awl. tetibe sakit perut. buang2 punya buang, lambat jugak. 

kalut2 jalan, walau kain sendat, aku langkah mcm org pakai seluar nak p jogging.

sakit2 kaki, aku jalan mcm ronaldo peha gedebuk2 tu.

tanak lecturer kecik ati org dtg lambat.

sanggup tak beli bfast aku p kuliah. 

alhamdulillah. baru start.

abes kuliah, aku mkan sandwish dsa jual. mkn cepat2, takut patient sampai.

janji smlm : patient dtg kul 9 pg

aku tgu.

tgu

dan tgu

patient tak dtg2 lg

aku call, phone die mati.

nak wat ape? 

pgl pt lain? kalau die tetibe dtg?

pgl 2nd pt aku?

die p servis kete. 

tgu lg.

kul 10. 45 baru si budak bername patient dtg.

1st time aku jadi tegas dgn patient

' adik, kalau lain kali, dh lewat mcm ni, baik tak payah dtg.berape lame awk lewat? dekat 2 jam'

die ingat aku bersuka ria waste kan mase aku 2 jam cm tu??

tak sangka tgu patient mcm rase tgu mati.

abes treatment kul 12. terpakse batalkn 2nd patient. bongok!

buang mase aku lg.

petang.

aku p physio.

tak loser mane.

yeke? 

kaki aku sakit... 

malu ngn org baru operate 5 mgu tp mcm lg hebat dr aku

aku? 7 bulan dh.

nak bend lutut pon ketar.

aku tau therapist aku mcm kecewa.

tp nak wat cane.

buat exercise sendiri kat bilik mmg tak penah nak menjadi.

sakit sikit, rehat

sakit byk, tak buat dh.

pemalas.

aku ingat dah putus balik, tp die kate tak. oh..syukur..

mlm, aku ad kuliah. kul 8. ( aku tatau pukul bape mulanye)

aku cepat2 smyg maghrib, siap tgl bace al quran, ingat nak tdo kejap punya pasal.

aku siap2 pakai tudung dh, nak tdo kejap. 

(Awk, g physio sgt penat sebenarnye. sy perlu rehat kejap itu.)

bgun2 kul 9. 

sedey kowt!

lecture ape cm tu kalau g sejam lewat.

aaaaa! benci diri sendiri! kalau diri tu terror mcm bdk cina takpe. 

p/s : aku dah ' start ur day with a smile dh rini'. nape tak jadi?